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a few months ago I made this video whichمنذ بضعة أشهر، قمت بعمل هذا الفيديو الذي
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was the result of growing feelings I've been having about myself in that video I talked about how I have always felt veryكنت أشعر بها تجاه نفسي في هذا الفيديو،
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unintellig­ent and I cared more about becoming prettier than exploring ideasبعدم الذكاء الشديد وأنني أهتم أكثر بأن
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or learning new things I feel as though I've always had a really hard timeأو تعلم أشياء جديدة. أشعر كما لو أنني كنت أواجه
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retaining informatio­n I'm 26 and I can't multiplica­tion tables I don't know how to calculate percentage­s I still don't really know what fractions are I don'tالاحتفاظ بالمعلومات، عمري 26 عامًا ولا أستطيع القيام
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gcfc I never got one I I didn't pass it in school and I didn't attend my uh functional skills classes in collegegcfc جماعي لم أحصل على واحد مطلقًا لم أنجح
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which are supposed to kind of supplementوالتي من المفترض أن تكون نوعًا من المكملات
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if you don't pass your gcse's um and I didn't do those so I performed prettyإذا لم تنجح في اجتيازك gcse's um وأنا
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badly in school while I had an older SI that was just effortless­ly smart my parents never gave me crap about badسيئًا للغاية في المدرسة بينما كان لدي SI أقدم
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results or anything but either way I came away from school feeling justالنتائج السيئة أو أي شيء ولكن في كلتا الحالتين
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incredibly lacking in mental ability and knowledge general knowledge I I felt very aware and and conscious of a yeahبالنقص بشكل لا يصدق في القدرة العقلية
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like a lack of mental ability that's howمثل الافتقار إلى القدرة العقلية، وهذا ما
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wonder many times if there was something else wrong with me because I just I justتساءلت حقًا عدة مرات عما إذا كان هناك شيء
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I couldn't remember things I just couldn't retain informatio­n that wasلم أستطع تذكر الأشياء التي لم أتمكن من
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given to me and I couldn't I couldn'tقدمت لي ولم أتمكن من ذلك، لم أتمكن من
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engage with informatio­n and as an adultالتعامل مع المعلومات وكشخص بالغ
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I continued to feel that way and it it just seemed like everyone else around meواصلت الشعور بهذه الطريقة وبدا الأمر
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didn't have this problem like they just seemed to know things and I especiallyلم يفعلوا ذلك يبدو أن هذه المشكلة كما لو أنهم
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noticed this growing up um with my boyfriends um they they always seem toلاحظت هذا بشكل خاص أثناء نشأتي مع
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know things that I didn't and I got the impression that once they had readيعرفون أشياء لم أكن أعرفها ولدي
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something or been told something it kindشيء ما أو إخبارهم بشيء ما، فهذا نوع من أنواع الأشياء. لقد
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of just stayed there for example I was talking to my boyfriend recently um I just watched a video on the Frenchبقيت هناك للتو، على سبيل المثال، كنت
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Revolution and I had mentioned this guy and and he immediatel­y was like oh yeah that person and was able to like recall his contributi­ons to to the event and to that period of history and I had neverالثورة الفرنسية وقد ذكرت هذا الرجل
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heard this name before even though they seem to be a very Central character in like the the biggest Revolt in humanأسمع بهذا الاسم من قبل على الرغم من أنهم
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history Maybe I learned about it inتاريخ البشرية ربما تعلمت عنها في
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school and it just left my brain and maybe he learned about it in school and it stayed there if they were curiousالمدرسة وقد تركت عقلي للتو وربما
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about something they didn't know about they would just Google it in that moment and this was a behavior I could neverبشأن شيء لا يعرفونه، كانوا يبحثون عنه في محرك البحث
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participat­e in because it's like myالمشاركة فيه أبدًا لأنه كان كما لو أن عقلي
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resisted knowledge and new informatio­nيقاوم المعرفة والمعلومات الجديدة
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if I want to know something if I want toإذا أريد أن أعرف شيئًا ما، إذا كنت أرغب في
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approach a piece of informatio­n I have prepare myself I have to very consciousl­y engage my mind I couldn'tتناول جزء من المعلومات، يجب أن أقوم
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just casually Google something and readمجرد البحث في Google عن شيء ما والقراءة
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about it and have it be effective at all so I kind of developed this aversion toعنه وجعله فعالاً على الإطلاق، لذلك
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curiosity and looking for answers I hadالفضول والبحث عن الإجابات، كان لدي
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this impression that other people could just be exposed to a piece of informatio­n once once or twice and it just locked in for them and and theyهذا الانطباع بأن الأشخاص الآخرين يمكن أن
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could rely on recalling that informatio­n they could Breeze past the informatio­nويمكنهم الاعتماد على تذكر تلك المعلومات التي
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they could be in the general presence of the informatio­n and just soak it up literally like a sponge and I wouldالتي يمكن أن تكون في الحضور العام
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compare myself to something more like a a nice smooth glass paper weight Pleasant and ornamental but completelyأقارن نفسي بشيء يشبه إلى حد كبير
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nonporous it wasn't just the fact that Iغير مسامي تمامًا، ولم يكن الأمر مجرد حقيقة أنني
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didn't know a lot of things it was about me not being able to take in and engageلم أكن أعرف الكثير من الأشياء، كان الأمر يتعلق
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with knowledge and like I could read and read about things and within the nextالمعرفة والتعامل معها، وكأنني أستطيع القراءة والقراءة
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day within the next week I could not return to you anything that I had been about and this this just feels like theاليوم التالي خلال الأسبوع التالي لم أتمكن من
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experience I've always had and maybe maybe I'm exaggerati­ng a little bit butالتجربة التي مررت بها دائمًا وربما
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that's how it's felt that's really how um I've I've really struggled to learnهذا ما أشعر به وهذا ما أشعر به حقًا لقد
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things so I hope that explains a bit more effectivel­y how I've come to feelأشياء جديدة لذا آمل أن يفسر هذا بشكل
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the way that I do and I'm not defendingبالطريقة التي أشعر بها وأنا لا أدافع
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it I'm not that cruel to myself I don't look at myself in the mirror and sayعنها، أنا لست بهذه القسوة على نفسي، لا
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you're stupid or at least I don't now and that's why I wanted to make thisأنك غبي أو على الأقل لا أفعل ذلك الآن ولهذا
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video and start talking about this ifالفيديو وأبدأ بالحديث عن هذا إذا
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you watch my other video you'll remember how I also talked about how relevant my poor body image was to my judgment andشاهدت الفيديو الآخر الخاص بي فسوف تتذكر
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how my feelings about being a woman and being visually and sexually appealing than expanding my mind and developing my character being pretty took far greaterوكيف إن مشاعري تجاه كوني امرأة وأن
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importance than anything to illustrateأهمية أكبر بكثير من أي شيء آخر لتوضيح
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it more practicall­y I would spend hoursذلك بشكل عملي أكثر، كنت أقضي ساعات
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every day looking at girls online and trying to figure out how to look like them what did I need to do I'd beكل يوم في النظر إلى الفتيات عبر الإنترنت
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researchin­g hair and makeup and how it redefined your features I'd be lookingبالبحث عن الشعر والمكياج وكيف يعيد
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up workouts to Target specific parts of my body uh cosmetic procedures and and how they work and how much they and I don't think there's anything wrong by the way with investing in in your appearance it's still something that Iعن تمارين لاستهداف أجزاء معينة من
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do and it's still something that I enjoy I love developing my my Aesthetics andأفعله وما زال شيئًا أستمتع به،
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my style I still devote my time to that but the issue was that it was virtually all that occupied my mind and I developed body dysmorphia and I got depressed and I neglected my spirit andوأسلوبي، وما زلت أكرس وقتي له
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it's taken me a really long time to really register the consequenc­es of allواستغرق الأمر وقتًا طويلاً حقًا
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of that and I can't emphasize with enough Justice how much effort it's taken to find acceptance with my appearance but but more than that takeذلك ولا أستطيع ذلك. أؤكد بما فيه الكفاية على
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away some of that stock that I had been putting into my appearance for so many years and realizing that it's not as valuable as I thought it was and this very well may not be your experience as a woman I I do feel like there are women who were much more quickly wise to all of this that their outward appearance doesn't hold all of the value that they offer and maybe this honestly soundsخذ بعضًا من هذا المخزون الذي كنت
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quite pathetic um because it was I feltتمامًا مثير للشفقة لأنني شعرت
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pathetic and I was incredibly misguided arduously restore my self-estee­m soبالشفقة وكنت مضللاً بشكل لا يصدق
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moving into the next part of this video I want to share with you some of theانتقل إلى الجزء التالي من هذا الفيديو
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things I've been doing to try to my mind and learn new things I I want a betterالأشياء التي كنت أفعلها لمحاولة عقلي
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sense of general knowledge I don't want to feel so ignorant and I want to understand things that are happening in the world I've been making changesإحساسًا أفضل بالمعرفة العامة لا أريد أن
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towards a daily life that has moreنحو الحياة اليومية التي تتمتع بإمكانية
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casual access to knowledge I'm setting up conditions for an environmen­t of learning and curiosity without being intimidate­d by it and this is what thisالوصول غير الرسمية للمعرفة، أقوم
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looks like for me so I knew the first place I wanted to start was my socialيبدو عليه الأمر بالنسبة لي، لذلك عرفت أن أول
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media accounts because I use them everyحساباتي على وسائل التواصل الاجتماعي لأنني أستخدمها كل
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day um Instagram especially I scroll on Instagram every day and it's importantيوم. um Instagram خاصة أنني أتصفح
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that the content on there is enrichingأن يكون المحتوى الموجود هناك ثريًا
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and positive for me I just Googledوإيجابيًا بالنسبة لي، لقد بحثت للتو في
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educationa­l Instagram accounts and I have to admit some of the results were aحسابات Instagram التعليمية ويجب أن
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bit strange um there were like articlesغريبة بعض الشيء، كان هناك مقالات
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of like 10 top 10 educationa­l Instagramمثل 10 أفضل 10 حسابات تعليمية على Instagram
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accounts and a lot of them led to likeوقد أدى الكثير منها إلى الإعجاب
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pages with like maybe Millions like hundreds of thousands of followers andبالصفحات التي تحتوي على إعجاب الملايين
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then like 1, 000 likes on the post which which made me feel a bit dubious um and I actually didn't really find anything useful from the first few Googleثم الإعجاب بـ 1000 إعجاب على المنشور
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searches but what I did end up doing is maybe finding one or two accounts andعمليات البحث القليلة الأولى على Google، ولكن ما فعلته في النهاية
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then when you follow an account on Instagram it will drop down with similarوبعد ذلك عندما تتابع حسابًا على
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recommende­d accounts and I just went through there I would just follow an account go straight to the recommende­dالحسابات الموصى بها المماثلة وقد ذهبت للتو إلى
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and see what uh felt relevant to me and how would have a look through on theوشاهد ما شعرت بأنه ذو صلة بالنسبة لي
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page just to see if I felt like I couldالصفحة فقط لمعرفة ما إذا كنت أشعر أنني أستطيع
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engage with it was it like easy enough for my mind to access it and because I use the harapon account the most that's where I decided to follow these newالتعامل معها، هل كان الأمر سهلاً بما يكفي
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accounts you know there were likeالحسابات الجديدة، كما تعلمون، كانت هناك صفحات مثل
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infographi­cs Pages news resources journalist­s um little like factالرسوم البيانية، وصفحات، وموارد إخبارية،
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slideshow Pages which I obviously don'tصفحات عرض شرائح الحقائق، والتي من الواضح أنني لا
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even know at this point if if they'reأعرف حتى في هذه المرحلة ما إذا كانت جديرة
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trustworth­y um so I'll be taking this as an opportunit­y as well to practice myبالثقة، أم لا، لذلك أنا سأغتنم هذه
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media literacy and verifying forمحو الأمية الإعلامية والتحقق من المعلومات
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misinforma­tion I think it will encourageالخاطئة، وأعتقد أن ذلك سيشجعني على
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me to think about that a bit more next I did a similar thing with YouTube I subscribe to a bunch of educationa­l andالتفكير في الأمر أكثر قليلاً، وبعد ذلك
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informativ­e channels I'm trying to get into a habit of just clicking onالقنوات التعليمية والإعلامية أحاول أن أعتاد على
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something when I see it and if it looksشيء ما عندما أراه، وإذا كان يبدو مثيرًا
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interestin­g which it's hard for me as Iللاهتمام، فهذا أمر صعب بالنسبة لي كما
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explained earlier it's very hard for me to face new informatio­n and I think it and a fear of like being confused and the the discomfort of exposing myself to something that I'm not going to be ableأوضحت سابقًا، فمن الصعب جدًا بالنسبة لي
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to understand but it is a bit differentمن فهمه ولكن الأمر مختلف قليلاً
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for me when it comes to learning through video format because the the way Iبالنسبة لي عندما يتعلق الأمر بالتعلم من خلال
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usually use YouTube is as kind ofعادةً ما أستخدم YouTube كنوع من
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background videos um while I'm doingمقاطع الفيديو الخلفية أثناء قيامي بأشياء
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other things a lot of the things I watchأخرى، والكثير من الأشياء التي أشاهدها
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of mindless watchable easy kind of entertainm­ent and I usually have it on while I'm doing something else when Iمن الترفيه السهل الذي لا معنى له والذي يمكن مشاهدته وعادةً ما
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first started thinking about this I thought okay well I'll subscribe to these channels and I'll just put theseبدأت بالتفكير في هذا الأمر لأول مرة،
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videos on instead I'll kind of like replace one Comfort video with something useful but that turned out to be a completely unsuccessf­ul system um it really did just turn into noise in theمقاطع الفيديو هذه بدلاً من ذلك، وسأقوم
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back of my ear it was it was ineffectiv­eالخلفي من أذني، لقد كانت غير فعالة
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because I wanted my comfort videos in that situation um that was their purposeلأنني أردت مقاطع الفيديو المريحة الخاصة بي في
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that's what they were there for so Iوهذا هو ما كانوا هناك من أجله، لذلك
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realized that I really need my fullأدركت أنني بحاجة حقًا إلى التزامي الكامل
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attention committed to videos so I call Discovery hour and this is an hour immediatel­y after I've woken up and taken care of myself um where I watchبالالتزام مقاطع الفيديو لذلك قمت
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some of these videos for up to an hour in the mornings um and I can reallyبعض مقاطع الفيديو هذه لمدة تصل إلى ساعة
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focus on them and it's very importantالتركيز حقًا عليها ومن المهم جدًا
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that it is early in the morning not like early in the morning but in the morning um I don't wake up super early but I I notice that I am just so much moreأن يكون الوقت مبكرًا في الصباح وليس مثل الصباح
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receptive to informatio­n in the morningتقبلاً للمعلومات في الصباح الذي
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I want to engage with it I think it's because I like to know that I'm gettingأريده أعتقد أن السبب في التفاعل معه هو أنني
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it done I just spend this time in the morning and then the rest of the day Iأنجزت الأمر، فأنا أقضي هذا الوقت في
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can just enjoy other videos I also have this kind of specific system with Discovery hour where I'll watch theيمكنني الاستمتاع بمقاطع الفيديو الأخرى لبقية اليوم، ولدي أيضًا
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video once all the way through UNDالفيديو مرة واحدة طوال الطريق عبر UND
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um and then I'll watch it again but takeum ثم سأشاهده مرة أخرى ولكن أقوم بتدوين
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notes the second time recently I've been making my way through the videos on theالملاحظات في المرة الثانية مؤخرًا، كنت
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oversimpli­fied channel which animates uh history in a very oversimpli­fied andالقناة المبسطة للغاية والتي تحرك
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easily digestible way and that's why it's so good for me so that's Discoveryوسهلة الفهم وهذا هو السبب في أنها
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hour I've also been trying to read more books uh this might not come as a huge surprise to you but I have not been theساعة الاكتشاف لقد كنت أحاول أيضًا قراءة المزيد من
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reader I exactly the person you might have heard describing reading the same paragraph over and over again because it's just not applying I would just become completely absent from the text in front of me and reading became this really frustratin­g and unsatisfyi­ngقارئ على الإطلاق بالضبط الشخص الذي ربما
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thing to do but the last year I've been trying so hard really actively trying to read more books and honestly it'sأمرًا محبطًا وغير مرضٍ حقًا، ولكن في العام الماضي كنت لقد كنت
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getting a lot easier and I think I'm getting better at it and right now I amأصبح الأمر أسهل كثيرًا وأعتقد أنني
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reading non-fictio­n because I'm wantingأقرأ كتبًا غير خيالية لأنني أرغب في
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to use it as a tool for Learning and I'mاستخدامها كأداة من أجل التعلم وأنا
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also reading a lot more since I moved toأيضًا أقرأ كثيرًا منذ أن انتقلت إلى
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London and I started studying um becauseلندن وبدأت الدراسة لأنه لدي ما يقرب من
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I've got like a hour plus commute so Iساعة بالإضافة إلى التنقل، لذلك
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usually always read a book on the trainعادةً ما أقرأ دائمًا كتابًا في القطار،
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enjoyable supplement for a phone because something in my hand and look at it you know but instead of consuming andممتع للغاية ملحق للهاتف لأنه لا يزال
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infinite feed of memes and brain rot andوتغذية لا حصر لها من الميمات وتعفن الدماغ
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trolls and women that are more beautiful and have bigger boobs than me is inوالمتصيدون والنساء الأكثر جمالاً
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civilized analog media and paper smells nice this is also why I have been investing in buying physical copies ofالوسائط التناظرية المتحضرة الخالية من الشعور بالذنب ورائحة الورق
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books even though it can be expensiveالكتب على الرغم من أنها قد تكون باهظة الثمن
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but I also wanted to use books to getولكني أردت أيضًا استخدام الكتب
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away from my phone now I want to showللابتعاد عن هاتفي الآن. أريد أن أعرض
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you some of the things I've been readingعليك بعض الأشياء التي كنت أقرأها
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uh and first I want to tell you how and why I bought these books because I didأه وأولًا أريد أن أخبرك كيف ولماذا
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not know where to start I've got entireلم أعرف من أين أبدأ، لقد حصلت على
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folders saved on Tik Tok of bookمجلدات كاملة محفوظة على تيك توك من
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recommenda­tions you know book reviews and I was very anxious about choosingتوصيات الكتب لك أعرف مراجعات الكتب
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the right thing to read because I knew it was going to take me a very long timeالشيء المناسب لقراءته لأنني كنت أعلم أن
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to read one book so I I felt a lot ofقراءة كتاب واحد ستستغرق وقتًا طويلاً للغاية، لذلك شعرت
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pressure to make good choices and I've been thinking about this and I think people like me in my generation have maybe forgotten that there are physicalبضغط كبير لاتخاذ خيارات جيدة وكنت
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stores you can go to where you canمتاجر فعلية يمكنك الذهاب إليها حيث يمكنك
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browse a limited selection of items I think because we've enjoyed the inexhausti­ble resources of the internetتصفح مجموعة محدودة من العناصر، وأعتقد أننا
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we feel like it's the only place we canونشعر أنها الوحيدة مكان يمكننا
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go to for suggestion­s but what I foundالذهاب إليه للحصول على اقتراحات ولكن ما وجدته
00:17:34
in my local uh water stones which is aفي متجر أحجار الماء المحلي الخاص بي، وهو
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big bookstore chain in the UK uh is thatسلسلة متاجر كبيرة في المملكة المتحدة، هو أن
00:17:43
they have little notes and annotation­sلديهم القليل من الملاحظات والشروحات
00:17:46
of some of the things you're seeing some of the books and I assume it's writtenلبعض الأشياء التي تراها في بعض
00:17:51
by the staff maybe it all comes from like the top and it's not personal at all I don't know how it works and in the genre specific areas of the store they've selected and separatedمن قبل الموظفين ربما يأتي كل شيء من
00:17:57
particular books uh that they consideredكتبًا معينة أه التي اعتبروها أن
00:18:12
to be some of the best in that genre soأكون من أفضل الكتب في هذا النوع، لذلك
00:18:16
I went straight to those featured bookذهبت مباشرة إلى جداول الكتب المميزة تلك
00:18:20
tables um and I just looked at what wasوألقيت نظرة على ما كان موجودًا
00:18:24
there and what I felt I wanted to learn about and I would spend some timeهناك وما شعرت أنني أريد التعرف
00:18:27
looking at the book and reading the blur and reading a few pages because I wanted to assess if it was going to be accessible for me or if it's maybe a bitالنظر إلى الكتاب وقراءة التعتيم
00:18:34
too advanced for my reading level so basically I I try to make this wholeمتقدمًا بعض الشيء بالنسبة لمستوى قراءتي، لذا
00:18:48
process as easy for me as possible and Iالعملية برمتها سهلة بالنسبة لي قدر الإمكان
00:18:55
tried to avoid these thoughts of of being in there and looking at the books and thinking like well maybe you shouldوحاولت تجنبها هذه الأفكار حول
00:18:59
read some reviews and maybe there's a better book out there or what if thisقراءة بعض المراجعات وربما يكون هناك
00:19:05
something but I decided I just need toشيء من هذا القبيل لكنني قررت أنني فقط أحتاج إلى
00:19:15
start reading and I can figure thingsالبدء في القراءة ويمكنني اكتشاف الأمور
00:19:18
out as I go first of all though I would like to make a cup of tea because I've been talking for something like half anأولاً على الرغم من أنني أرغب في
00:19:20
hour 40 minutes and I would I would likeساعة و40 دقيقة تقريبًا وأرغب في تناول
00:19:28
a cup of tea would you like a cup of tea you stay there I'll make you on milk continuing I was actually gone for a lotكوب من الشاي هل ترغب في تناول كوب من الشاي،
00:19:30
longer than it takes to make a cup ofأطول بكثير مما يستغرقه إعداد كوب من
00:19:48
tea because I called my mom and I'mالشاي لأنني اتصلت بأمي وأحاول
00:19:51
currently trying to move so was tryingحاليًا ذلك التحرك لذلك كنت أحاول
00:19:54
to sort out some of that stuff but now books books that I have bought books one was the first one I readفرز بعض هذه الأشياء ولكن الآن
00:19:57
because I'm quite interested in humanلأنني مهتم جدًا بالسلوك البشري،
00:20:26
um but I don't think I liked this book um it's all about these like character types and they've been sort ofلكنني لا أعتقد أنني أحببت هذا الكتاب، فهو يدور
00:20:30
designated as blue red green and yellow it's just sort of like categorizi­ng people's personalit­y types into these groups and it was a while ago that I read this it was a lot more about theباللون الأزرق والأحمر والأخضر و الأصفر،
00:20:40
workplace than I realized I think that's that's is aimed towards I think likeبمكان العمل أكثر مما أدركت، وأعتقد أن
00:20:55
managers um and people who work with environmen­ts and also it just didn'tالمديرين والأشخاص الذين يعملون مع
00:21:02
informativ­e I think um like the the theبالمعلومات الكافية وأعتقد أن
00:21:13
takeaway I got from it was like redالوجبات الجاهزة التي حصلت عليها كانت مثل
00:21:17
people angry yellow people happy greenالأشخاص الأحمر الغاضبين والأشخاص الأصفر والأشخاص الأخضر السعداء
00:21:20
unassuming little weasel and and blueومتواضع ابن عرس صغير و والأشخاص الزرق،
00:21:31
gloomy people but I mean it was stillوالأشخاص الكئيبين ولكني أعني أنها كانت لا تزال
00:21:40
kind of a fun read I guess not not too difficult to read yeah and it's surrounded by idiots by Thomas Eriksonقراءة ممتعة نوعًا ما، أعتقد أنها ليست
00:21:44
but this was like last year that I readولكن هذا كان مثل العام الماضي الذي قرأت فيه
00:21:55
so I don't think I can give the best umفأنا لا أعتقد أنني أستطيع تقديم أفضل
00:21:59
thoughts on it and in general for all of these books okay this is this is coming from someone who doesn't read who hasn'tالأفكار حول هذا الموضوع وبشكل عام بالنسبة لجميع
00:22:03
read a lot of books so this is a a very rudimentar­y assessment of these booksيقرأ الكثير من الكتب، لذا فهذا كتاب
00:22:09
this book however I really liked evenهذا الكتاب أعجبني حقًا على الرغم
00:22:17
though 50% of the time I had absolutely no idea what I was reading and I realized that there were parts of the book where I just had to had to accept uh yeah I don't know what's goingمن أنه في 50٪ من الوقت لم يكن لدي أي
00:22:21
on um but I'm going to keep reading cuz I need to get through it it didn'tيحدث ولكنني سأواصل القراءة لأنني
00:22:36
matter I I knew I think reading thisيهم، كنت أعلم أنني أعتقد أن قراءة هذا
00:22:40
book is when I realized that the more I read in general um the more things are wouldn't work if I just kept reading theالكتاب هي عندما أدركت أنه كلما
00:22:43
same book over and over because I needنفس الكتاب مرارًا وتكرارًا لأنني بحاجة إلى
00:22:54
more referentia­l knowledge and Broad knowledge cuz then you'll find yourself reading something and understand­ing it because of some other understand­ing you else did that make any sense but I did really like this and I feel like this about the systems of my brain uh in the beginning it's talking about theالمزيد من المعرفة المرجعية ومعرفة واسعة
00:22:57
process informatio­n and influence your behavior and your judgment but I think the the the biggest thing I took awayمعالجة المعلومات والتأثير على
00:23:37
like biases and how our brain kind ofبالتحيزات وكيف أن دماغنا على
00:23:48
okay this is me trying to do exactly what I've said that I'm I struggle withما يرام نوعًا ما، فأنا أحاول أن أفعل بالضبط
00:23:53
um but I found it quite interestin­g to learn about how our brains kind store informatio­n and accessذلك ولكني وجدت ذلك تمامًا من المثير للاهتمام أن
00:24:00
it no this isn't making any sense um like your brain is always like trying toإليها، لا، هذا ليس له أي معنى،
00:24:16
survive in the most efficient like you'll try it it will tryالبقاء على قيد الحياة بأكثر الطرق كفاءة
00:24:30
and recall the most present and easiest informatio­n that it can get to and it and I I know that I understood things from this book but I'm having a reallyيتذكر المعلومات الأكثر تقديمًا والأسهل
00:24:47
hard time describing it and I do want to think I think I'll get even more out of it the second time but yeah I Iصعوبة كبيرة الوقت الذي أصفه فيه وأريد
00:25:15
remember reading this and at some partsأتذكر قراءة هذا وفي بعض الأجزاء
00:25:27
flowing with it and being like oh wow that that makes sense I understand that and it was quite quite rewarding to readوأتدفق معه حقًا وأكون مثل أوه واو،
00:25:34
sometimes but there were also large that meant nothing to me absolutelyفي بعض الأحيان، ولكن كانت هناك أيضًا
00:25:44
nothing because he also talks aboutلا شيء على الإطلاق لأنه يتحدث أيضًا عن
00:25:50
economics a lot um so need I say more soالاقتصاد كثيرًا، لذا أحتاج أن أقول المزيد، لذا
00:25:51
yeah there is like quite a lot ofنعم هناك يشبه عددًا كبيرًا جدًا من
00:25:55
numbers oh and I was using this as a bookmark a picture of me and my friendالأرقام، وكنت أستخدم هذه كإشارة
00:25:57
Hannah this is from years ago I think like just before like lockdown I have blue hair that was awesome and this is Daniel con caraman would recommend this book however was definitely far tooهانا، هذه الصورة منذ سنوات مضت، كما أعتقد
00:26:03
advanced for my reading level at this point I probably could have done withمتقدم جدًا بالنسبة لمستوى قراءتي في هذه
00:26:24
reading a few easier and smaller booksقراءة بعض الكتب الأسهل والأصغر
00:26:29
like this is a big book and look how interested um from what it seemed to describe and what it seemed to offer andمثل هذا الكتاب الكبير وانظر إلى مدى
00:26:32
I am glad that I read it so those are two books I've read within the lastوأنا سعيد لأنني قرأته، لذا فإن هذين
00:26:45
year not a very impressive collection Iالعام الماضي وليسا مجموعة رائعة جدًا
00:26:51
did read like one non-fictio­n book that I don't really really care to talk aboutقرأتها مثل كتاب غير- كتاب خيالي
00:26:55
so what I'm reading now is n tomsky who rules the world um about this wayلذا فإن ما أقرأه الآن هو ن تومسكي الذي
00:27:00
through this has been easier to readخلال هذا كان أسهل في القراءة
00:27:11
writing and you know obviously there's like statistics and stuff and it's I'm learning a lot there are things in this book that I've never thought aboutيكتب بها وأنت تعلم أنه من الواضح أنه
00:27:21
or seen from this perspectiv­e and it's been hard to read it's been likeأو أراها من هذا المنظور مطلقًا، وكان من
00:27:34
upsetting to read in a lot of places Iقراءتها مزعجة في الكثير من الأماكن،
00:27:42
don't want to talk about this one tooلا أريد أن أتحدث عن هذا الموضوع
00:27:45
much because it's kind of political but yeah this is what I'm reading at theكثيرًا لأنه سياسي نوعًا ما، لكن
00:27:46
it so now I'll show you the books that I I'm hoping to read next I'm going to start with actually not necessaril­yبه، لذا الآن سأعرض عليك الكتب الذي
00:27:57
educationa­l books but uh some poetry because I got a message fromبالكتب التعليمية ولكن أه ببعض
00:28:08
someone on Instagram I write in myشخص ما على Instagram، فأنا أكتب في
00:28:15
stories a lot and I and I'd made someقصصي كثيرًا وقمت أنا وقد قمت ببعض
00:28:19
post that was kind of like a wool of text and on like a real and um they saidالمنشورات كان ذلك بمثابة صوف من
00:28:21
that the way I wrote reminded them ofإن الطريقة التي كتبت بها ذكّرتهم
00:28:27
one of these one or two of these authorsبواحد أو اثنين من هؤلاء المؤلفين الذين
00:28:30
I can't remember and I had sort of been interested in getting into poetry and reading poetry cuz I've always reallyلا أستطيع تذكرهم وكنت مهتمًا نوعًا ما
00:28:32
enjoyed writing not necessaril­y poemsأستمتع دائمًا بكتابة القصائد، وليس بالضرورة القصائد،
00:28:41
but I've always journaled and I really really enjoy expressing myself withلكنني دائمًا أمارس الكتابة وأستمتع حقًا
00:28:44
words I messaged them I responded to their message and we talked a little bitبالكلمات التي أرسلتها لهم وأجبت على
00:28:51
more about poets that they would like to recommend me and so there's someأكثر قليلاً عن ذلك. الشعراء الذين يرغبون في
00:28:56
yet I had another Roa book and I've just realized that I don't know where it is and it's been some months this this guyبعد، كان لدي كتاب روا آخر وأدركت للتو
00:29:08
I don't actually know how to say thatأنا لا أعرف في الواقع كيف أقول هذا
00:29:17
name oh it was letters to a young poet uh the reala book and I thought thatالاسم، لقد كانت رسائل لشاعر شاب،
00:29:18
letters to a young poet was made maybe like metaphoric­al or something I didn't realize it was literally a collection ofالرسائل الموجهة إلى شاعر شاب قد تكون
00:29:26
letters that he was sending to like anالرسائل أنه كان يرسل إلى مثل
00:29:36
conversati­ons he was having with that person um but it's still it was still pretty good to read but I did want toوالمحادثات التي كان يجريها مع ذلك
00:29:41
read like poems and maybe that's theأقرأ مثل القصائد وربما هذا هو
00:29:48
case for some of these books as well butالحال بالنسبة لبعض هذه الكتب مثل حسنًا، لكنني
00:29:51
I don't know yeah I just wanted to read something creative as well but not not necessaril­y like a novel like likeلا أعرف، نعم، أردت فقط قراءة
00:29:53
anything so uh I didn't buy these all inأي شيء آخر، لذا لم أشتر كل هذه الأشياء دفعة
00:30:05
one go this was actually like a few different bookstore visits let's justواحدة، كان هذا في الواقع مثل بضع
00:30:09
start with what's at the top of theلنبدأ بما هو موجود في الجزء العلوي من
00:30:15
an SE SE SE I feel like I need to be a feminist uh discourse that's why I bought this and in a similar way um I want to be more mindful of racialan SE SE SE أشعر أنني بحاجة إلى أن أكون
00:30:24
inequality and understand Le more about because as a white person I do find itالمساواة العرقية وأن أفهم المزيد حول
00:30:55
hard to talk about racism and that's what it says right on the front of thisصعوبة في التحدث عن العنصرية وهذا
00:31:06
book so I thought that could be useful and it's a it's a small book so I feel like I'll be able to read it prettyالكتاب، لذلك اعتقدت أن ذلك يمكن أن يكون كذلك. يكون مفيدًا
00:31:11
quickly um and it's white fragility byبسرعة كبيرة، وهو هش أبيض بقلم
00:31:19
hell uh this is the pink line the Frontiers um I'm a queer person I'mجحيم دموي، هذا هو الخط الوردي لحدود
00:31:31
bisexual so I also feel like these areثنائي الجنس، لذا أشعر أيضًا أن هذه هي
00:31:42
things I need to know about and I don't I feel like there's a lot of criticalالأشياء التي أحتاج إلى معرفتها ولا
00:31:46
awareness that I'm lacking and I want to quite passionate­ly about LGBT rights andالوعي النقدي الذي أفتقر إليه وأريد
00:31:52
I want to be able to communicat­e that more and know what I'm talking aboutوأريد أن أكون قادرًا على إيصال ذلك
00:32:03
know how to defend what I believe in butومعرفة كيفية الدفاع عما أؤمن به ولكن
00:32:09
this is a big book oh my God this is theهذا كتاب كبير يا إلهي، هذا هو
00:32:13
biggest out of all of these uh next bookالأكبر من بين كل هذه الأشياء. الكتاب التالي
00:32:17
is let's talk and I'm not sure how to pronounce this person's nameهو دعنا نتحدث ولست متأكدًا من كيفية
00:32:21
I'm Nial AR with okay Nial AR okay ARA uh let's talk how to have better I'm quite an introvert and I have I definitely have struggled with socialأنا Nial AR مع حسنًا Nial AR حسنًا،
00:32:28
interactio­ns I've gotten a lot betterالتفاعلات الاجتماعية، لقد تحسنت كثيرًا
00:32:49
over the years but it's still somethingعلى مر السنين ولكن لا يزال هناك شيء
00:32:51
I'm a little insecure about sometimes I feel like I'm talking to someone and Iأشعر بعدم الأمان تجاهه أحيانًا
00:32:54
have no idea what to say and I don'tوليس لدي أي فكرة عما سأقوله وأنا لا
00:32:59
know if that's necessaril­y what thisأعرف إذا كان هذا هو بالضرورة ما يدور
00:33:01
book is about I think it's more about like understand­ing each other andحوله هذا الكتاب، أعتقد أنه يتعلق أكثر
00:33:02
listening and yeah how we can connect loneliness yeah so that's that course a question I have asked myself s i was immediatel­y drawn to the the title and the cover can't we justوالاستماع ونعم كيف يمكننا التواصل
00:33:07
print more money I mean the sense I got title was that it's not going to be tooطباعة المزيد من الأموال؟ أعني أن الإحساس الذي حصلت عليه
00:33:32
serious and not not too heavy and they they must know that they're targeting aخطيرًا جدًا ولن يكون ثقيلًا جدًا ويجب أن
00:33:42
certain audience with this and I'm thatجمهورًا معينًا بهذا، وأنا ذلك
00:33:48
audience economic intense simple questions um by Rupal Patel and Jack meaning yeah it's about economics something that also feels important to faintest understand­ing of how it works I I literally don't understand um and I and I've tried I've like watch someالجمهور من الأسئلة البسيطة الاقتصادية المكثفة التي طرحها
00:33:50
videos try to understand things and um Iمقاطع الفيديو، وأحاول فهم الأشياء،
00:34:22
bubbles what's that I think I was try I was I was trying to understand likeما الذي أعتقد أنني كنت أحاوله؟
00:34:31
works and I and I just remember thinkingيعمل الاستثمار وأنا وأتذكر التفكير
00:34:39
decides or the market decides but who'sيقرر أو السوق هو الذي يقرر ولكن من هو
00:34:45
who anyway I think it's pretty obviousأي حال أعتقد أنه من الواضح جدًا
00:34:51
why I bought this book this one I gotسبب شرائي لهذا الكتاب، هذا الكتاب الذي حصلت عليه
00:34:55
because of how much I enjoyed this oneلأنه عن مدى استمتاعي بهذا الكتاب
00:35:00
about the way this book describes biases and biases in our brain and in our likeعن الطريقة التي يصف بها هذا الكتاب التحيزات
00:35:06
subconscio­us um I was so interested inالباطن، كنت مهتمًا جدًا بهذه
00:35:14
those parts of the book so I I had thisالأجزاء من الكتاب، لذا خطرت لي
00:35:18
thought that I should read more about this because I was able to read those parts really easily because I was interested in it and that makes a bigفكرة أنه ينبغي عليّ اقرأ المزيد عن
00:35:21
difference uh so this is biased byفرقًا كبيرًا أه، لذا فإن هذا متحيز بواسطة
00:35:29
Jennifer L Eberhart uncovering theجينيفر إل إيبرهارت التي تكشف عن
00:35:31
hidden prejudices that shape Our Livesالتحيزات الخفية التي تشكل حياتنا
00:35:35
cuz yeah I think there's like a lot ofلأنني أعتقد أن هناك مثل الكثير من
00:35:39
things that our brains are doing they'reالأشياء التي تفعلها أدمغتنا تكون
00:35:43
unconsciou­s um and so easily influenced and I would like to know more about that I think this this is more about like uh than what this book was talking about like I think it's it's more about like race and and skin color um and howغير واعية للغاية وتتأثر بسهولة
00:35:47
people are treated based on those thingsالتعامل مع الأشخاص بناءً على تلك الأشياء
00:36:07
which is still very important to knowالتي لا يزال من المهم جدًا معرفتها
00:36:09
one uh as I'm like sort of reading it and the the blur and and inside it seemsهذا آه لأنني أحب قراءته نوعًا ما،
00:36:17
to be that it's targeted not to childrenسواء كان ذلك لا يستهدف الأطفال
00:36:24
but like young people I think it's introducti­on to get young people science or or maybe not I don't know from but I really like the idea of a book like this because I feel like when I was going into the bookstore I was looking for things that were kind ofولكن مثل الشباب، أعتقد أنه من
00:36:28
like a a broad introducti­on to an easy introducti­on to the kind of like entire history of something just for like aبمثابة مقدمة واسعة لمقدمة سهلة لنوع
00:36:52
general sense of knowledge before tryingالشعور العام بالمعرفة قبل محاولة
00:37:03
specific parts of of different subjects so this is a little History of Scienceأجزاء محددة جدًا من مواضيع مختلفة،
00:37:10
Bam um I'm sure I've pronounced so manyبام أم، أنا متأكد من أنني نطقت الكثير
00:37:18
of these names wrong I think this isمن هذه الأسماء بشكل خاطئ وأعتقد أن هذه
00:37:21
exciting read yeah really looking forward to this uh I recently went to see the Bloomberg new contempora­ries at the Camden Art Center which is an artقراءة مثيرة، نعم تبحث حقًا لقد
00:37:25
gallery in London and they had a a store in there with books and notebooks andمعرض فني في لندن وكان لديهم متجر
00:37:39
parapherna­lia um and I was drawn to this like isn't that CA just so sick uh it'sوأدوات وأدوات، وقد انجذبت إلى هذا الأمر،
00:37:45
called not what I meant but anyway by name and that name and I think they're like a pair of artists and this is kind of like a a photo book of their work butليس ما أقصده ولكن على أي حال بواسطة
00:37:52
guess Exposition on the on the artwork and and their process obviously I wasوأعتقد أن العرض على العمل الفني
00:38:24
mostly drawn to the pictures some reallyانجذبت في الغالب إلى الصور، وبعض
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images in here I really love these like horse ones seems to be you know someالصور الرائعة حقًا هنا أحبها حقًا مثل صور
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surgeons performing something on a horseالجراحين الذين يقومون بشيء ما على حصان
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I just want to show you all the niceأنا فقط أريد أن أريكم جميع الصور الجميلة
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oh they look like x-rays I don't know ifفهي تبدو مثل الأشعة السينية، لا أعرف إذا
00:38:54
they are yeah I'm really I'm really glad I I picked up this book cuz there's aكانت كذلك، نعم، أنا سعيد حقًا، أنا سعيد حقًا لأنني
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Aesthetics in here that I'm very excited by and I want to I want to achieve thisالجماليات هنا. أنا متحمس جدًا
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art this this looks really cool um I obviously haven't like had a properفني، وهذا يبدو رائعًا حقًا، ومن
00:39:16
look through it yet but I can already recommend this just for looking at the pictures so that's all of the books I I have Acquired and I'm very much looking forward to reading right now because Iنظرة مناسبة عليه حتى الآن ولكن يمكنني بالفعل أن
00:39:23
have so many books I'm trying to get through I'm not necessaril­y looking for suggestion­s cuz I don't want to overwhelm myself um but maybe at someلدي الكثير من الكتب التي أحاول الاطلاع
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point in the future I'll do something inمرحلة ما في المستقبل سأفعل شيئًا ما في
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my Discord maybe I'll make like a book suggestion Channel or something likeDiscord الخاص بي، ربما سأقوم بإنشاء
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that so so those are I think four thingsهذا القبيل، لذلك أعتقد أن هذه هي أربعة أشياء
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that I'm doing to try to become smarterأفعلها لمحاولة أن أصبح أكثر ذكاءً
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and obviously I don't do these thingsومن الواضح أنني لا أفعل هذه الأشياء
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every day like Discovery hour I try andكل يوم مثل ساعة الاكتشاف، بل أحاول
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do it a couple of days a week um but Iالقيام بذلك بضعة أيام في الأسبوع، لكنني
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also I don't want to stress myself out I'm not putting pressure on myself toأيضًا لا أريد أن أضغط على نفسي،
00:40:12
see some incredible results or anythingلرؤية بعض الأشياء. نتائج مذهلة أو أي شيء،
00:40:17
I just know that this feels good for meأعلم أن هذا أمر جيد بالنسبة لي،
00:40:21
I feel like I'm taking serious iously responsibi­lity of being a human andأشعر وكأنني أتحمل على محمل الجد
00:40:24
having an impact on others and the world that that's kind of what I'm trying toويكون لي تأثير على الآخرين والعالم، وهذا ما
00:40:32
do anyway I want to be a more informedالقيام به على أي حال. أريد أن أكون عضوًا أكثر اطلاعًا
00:40:37
member of society and I want to be ableفي المجتمع وأريد أن أكون قادرًا
00:40:40
to understand other people more a lot of books about behavior and psychology andعلى فهم الآخرين بشكل أكبر. الكثير من
00:40:43
social issues I realize that's where a lot of my interests are I just feel like that's kind of almost the foundation ofوالقضايا الاجتماعية. أدرك أن هذا هو المكان الذي تكمن فيه
00:40:52
all things is how we connect with each other and the reason that I'm making this video and sharing it is because Iكل الأشياء هو كيفية تواصلنا مع بعضنا
00:41:00
know that I can't be the only one thatأعلم أنني لا أستطيع أن أكون الوحيد الذي
00:41:09
insurmount­able it feels and I think I want to show people that you have just as much of a right as anyone to learningصعوبة التغلب على هذا الشعور و أعتقد أنني
00:41:16
and to knowledge however poorly you may have performed in school or however you've felt growing up uh you you have aوالمعرفة، مهما كان أدائك سيئًا
00:41:27
right just as anyone to nurtureالحق تمامًا مثل أي شخص آخر في الرعاية
00:41:39
curiosity being so convinced of your ownالفضول هو أن تكون مقتنعًا جدًا
00:41:43
stupidity your whole life uh it almostبغباءك طوال حياتك، يبدو أنه من
00:41:46
feels pointless to even try uh that's that's what my experience has been I kind of separated myself from theseغير المجدي حتى أن تحاول، هذا
00:41:49
people that I imagined had working brains and were educated and I justالأشخاص الذين تخيلت أنهم يتمتعون
00:41:58
reminded myself that I'm not like themوذكّرت نفسي بذلك أنا لست مثلهم ولا
00:42:07
and I shouldn't even try but I'm older now and I'm not as mean to myself and I'm I'm genuinely for the firstينبغي لي حتى أن أحاول ولكني أكبر سنًا
00:42:10
time really excited to be exposed toمرة متحمس حقًا للتعرض لأشياء تتعلق بالمعرفة
00:42:20
and learn things and be open to it andو تعلم الأشياء وكن منفتحًا عليها
00:42:28
finally feel like I can begin to receiveوأشعر أخيرًا أنني أستطيع البدء في تلقيها،
00:42:32
it I really hope you enjoyed this video I'd love to hear your thoughts and thankأتمنى حقًا أن تستمتع بهذا الفيديو،
00:42:35
you so much for watching if you got toوأشكرك كثيرًا على المشاهدة إذا وصلت إلى يجب أن يكون نوعًا ما الخوف من نوع من الأشخاص العصبيين المفرطين في التركيز هذه النقطة، حسنًا إلى اللقاء
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